Again ,
You made me felt disappointed again ..
I gave you freedom to play dota , as I know you are quite stress this few days ..
And I expected you to go back your room early , because the next day you still have a 8.00 a.m class to attend !!
It was 2.00 a.m , and I was still waiting for your call or message to show that you had reached your room safety ...
I wait patiently withou disturbing you ..
But hours and hours had passed by , and yet I still haven't get any meassages from you ...
I looked at my phone again , it was almost 3.00 a.m ..
I can't stand for my sleepy , so I decided to go sleep ...
Slept with phone in my hand , cause I scared I missed your call or messages ...
I was awake at 4.00 a.m , checked again my phone ..
It's empty ..
No notification , no missed calls ..
I was totally disappointed ...
Fell asleep again ...
7.00 a.m , awaken by alarm ...
It's the alarm I set just because you asked me to wake you up on this time , so that you won't be late for your class ...
I called , and what I get is the impatient modal from you ..
I hang up the call , and continued back my sleep ...
Woke up again at 10 a.m ++ , as my class is at 11.00 a.m ..
Done all my stuff , and went out ...
I was waiting , waiting and waiting for a message or call from you ...
But yet , my phone still in silence mode ..
The hardest thing for me today is to pretend happy , just to hide my bad mood and depression from my friends , so that they won't worry or ask me anything ..
4.00 p.m ++ , you called ..
Told me that you had finished your project and late submission ...
That time , I wish to get an explanation and apologize from you ..
What I want is just " Babe I'm sorry for letting you await me till so late .. "
But you didn't said anything ..
Heart broken ...
What else can I say anymore ...
It's not the first time ,
Everytime you told me that you won't did the same wrong again ...
But you still did it ...
How many chances more should I gave to you ??
I'm tired of giving chances to you , but you still take it as a normal cases , and start to do the same wrong again ...
When only your promises will become true ??
When only I can become the most important person in your heart ??
I had no idea anymore .....
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我曾经问过， 他给我的回答是， ”你知道这是我的性格， 我们在一起， 就不能包容我吗。。。“ 等等一大堆借口。
ReplyDelete我们生气的，不是因为他们都做错什么大事， 我们担心的只是他们的健康， 他们的功课，他们这样的性格在以后的工作生活能不能够生存。。
但是他们永远不会理解。 如果真的， 有什么办法能够让他们明白的话， 我会很开心的。。
还好， 你等的只是一天。 我曾经等过2个礼拜。 我就是特地等等。 看他会不会主动过来找我， 会不会sms我一下， 但是 失败了。 。
我不轻易说分手， 因为我珍惜。。 但是 那一次，我真的很想就这样算了。。
但是， 至少， 那段时间过后， 他有一～～～～～～～点点 改变。。 就一点点。。
那天在fb看到的是真的， 我们应该要常常把自己打扮打扮 （虽然我不会啦）， 因为这样的话， 他们就会开始担心我们被其他男生抢走了。。。
但是， 我在想， 如果他还是不会改变， 搞不好哪一天忍无可忍的时候， 真的会提出分手。。 (当然，我还在忍耐着)。。。