Another grey post ..

You can ignore if you dislike to see ..

Tim flies ..

We almost been together for almost 11 months ..

I thought the stress for facing your family will get easier ..

But reality isn't as good as what I thought ..

Stress getting more and more ..

Since the moment I saw all those messages ,

My mind totally went blank ..

I was trying so hard to be good , or even better ..

But how funny that nobody saw the effort ..

I know ,

Our family financial level is not the same ..

Yours is much higher than mine ..

But who can choose the family that we wished to have ,but only God ?

I can't make my family to be as rich as your family ..

I can understand what's your mum thinking ..

You're the only son in your family ..

Your mum and sister care about your future wife is a must ..

Because you're the only son , they sure want you to have a girlfriend that is nice and have the same financial level with your family ..

I told myself to be more tough ,

Tough enough to stand all the dissatisfied of your mother and sister ..

I will !!

For our future , I will hold on still !!
And , I will prove to your family that I really love you !!
No matter how , I will stay beside you and I won't leave you because of this kind of matter !!
I promised you and now I can swear to you !!

I believe that I can do it !!
Just wait and see !!
Made myself calm down is much better than keep on thinking about the matter ~~
Phew ~~~~
Better feeling now ~~
XD

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一整天没吃东西了。
下午只吃了一个面包，
早餐，晚餐，都没吃。
心情真的很低落。
又哭了。
眼泪一直流，头在疼。
整个人接近崩溃边界。
没人懂，没人了解。
就连你，也不明白。
你说，你累了。
你说，只要我告诉你我很辛苦，你就会放开我的手，让我走。
为什么？
想你了两天，得到的，却是这两句话？
我闹脾气，是因为要你紧张我啊！
但是为什么 ？
没有你，我会比现在更痛苦，更辛苦。
你有没有想过？
因为你，我的日子渐渐的变得开朗了。
也许你没发现，我的笑容比以前多了好多。
为什么要酱来伤害我这颗一直都在想你的心？
对阿，我们在一起经历很多事情。
接近11个月了。
好多风风雨雨，我们都一起携手度过了。
但这一次呢？我没信心了。
我真的很希望我们能一直走下去，无论发生什么事情。
能吗？
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Again ,
You made me felt disappointed again ..
I gave you freedom to play dota , as I know you are quite stress this few days ..
And I expected you to go back your room early , because the next day you still have a 8.00 a.m class to attend !!
It was 2.00 a.m , and I was still waiting for your call or message to show that you had reached your room safety ...
I wait patiently withou disturbing you ..
But hours and hours had passed by , and yet I still haven't get any meassages from you ...
I looked at my phone again , it was almost 3.00 a.m ..
I can't stand for my sleepy , so I decided to go sleep ...
Slept with phone in my hand , cause I scared I missed your call or messages ...
I was awake at 4.00 a.m , checked again my phone ..
It's empty ..
No notification , no missed calls ..
I was totally disappointed ...
Fell asleep again ...
7.00 a.m , awaken by alarm ...
It's the alarm I set just because you asked me to wake you up on this time , so that you won't be late for your class ...
I called , and what I get is the impatient modal from you ..
I hang up the call , and continued back my sleep ...
Woke up again at 10 a.m ++ , as my class is at 11.00 a.m ..
Done all my stuff , and went out ...
I was waiting , waiting and waiting for a message or call from you ...
But yet , my phone still in silence mode ..
The hardest thing for me today is to pretend happy , just to hide my bad mood and depression from my friends , so that they won't worry or ask me anything ..
4.00 p.m ++ , you called ..
Told me that you had finished your project and late submission ...
That time , I wish to get an explanation and apologize from you ..
What I want is just " Babe I'm sorry for letting you await me till so late .. "
But you didn't said anything ..
Heart broken ...
What else can I say anymore ...
It's not the first time ,
Everytime you told me that you won't did the same wrong again ...
But you still did it ...
How many chances more should I gave to you ??
I'm tired of giving chances to you , but you still take it as a normal cases , and start to do the same wrong again ...
When only your promises will become true ??
When only I can become the most important person in your heart ??
I had no idea anymore .....
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It's been a while that I didn't update my blog ..

Seem like full of dust here ..

No motivation to update ..

22/09/2012

The first time we broke up ..

I hold my tears during my cousin's wedding dinner ..

Keep on smiling and laughing , just like nothing happened ..

Once reached home , tears straight away fell down ..

Mum hugged me , and keep on asking me what happened ..

But what I gave to her , is just a shaking head ...

She fed up , and called my boy ..

I was shocked !!

I scream like hell , and begging mum to hang up the call !!

But at last , thanks to that call ,

We have been together again ..

It's the first time I cried like a ghost ...

Non-stop crying in front of my family ...

The first time I scream like a crazy girl that I never done all this before ..

That time , only I realize ,

This is the 1st and only time I have been so serious in relationship ..

Thanks god , I had you back again with me ..

It's hard for me to let you go again ..

Without you , I really don't know what else can I do ..

I really do love you ..

Please hold my hand tight again ..

And don't let it go so easily again , like last time ..

Ask me if there's a misunderstanding ..

I don't hope we will argue or separate just because of misunderstand and you're not going to ask me to explain ..

A new sem starts 3 weeks ago ..

Everything settled down ..

Time for assignments and proposal again ..

Time for practice and teaching dancing again ..

Time to know more friends ..

Really do hope I can get to know more friends ..

I'm gonna be more hardworking this sem ( I hope so .. XD)

Hope everything will go smooth this whole sem ~~~~

Pray to god with my sincere heart ~~

Glad to have my sista back again ..

Hope we won't be like last time .. :(

Now only I know that even we are in cold war , 

You still concerning about my life , my status ..

Thanks for giving me care and support when I really need it ~

Hope you will think that I've changed a lot ..

Hope that I won't make you disappointed again ..

It's almost 1/2 month that I didn't meet up with my best sista ~

DAMN MISS HER LAR !!!

When I'm in my sem break , she had test ..

When I start my new sem , she just started her holiday ..

=.=

WTF ?!!!!
I MUST meet her this weekend !!!!

XDD

My Pinky Puma ~~~

Bought by my lovely hubby ~~~~

Thanks a lot ~~

I really so love this beg !!!!!

And I will take good care of it ,

Even though I already made a tiny little hole on it ...

:'(

The most precious time in my world ~

Babe , you are 1st man for helping me to dry up my hair ~

This is the 1st time I feel so sweet ~~

Thanks , hubby ~

You really willing to do anything just for my smile ~

Thanks for your care ~

Really appreciate it ~~

The wedding car ~

Nice car , nice number plate ~

BMW !!!

The outfit look for the wedding dinner ~~

Can't imagine this is me ~~ XDD

First time wear long skirt when attending dinner ~

Nice experience ~

P/s : This photo make my arms look so fake !!! >.<

We fall in love with each other ~

We care for each other ~

We hold tight , and walk side by side to the future ~

I love you ~

Brandon Lim ~
You are my most precious person in my heart ~

<3

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